Savings!

What I wanted for lunch today:

McDonald's Filet-o-(fake)Fish - 380 calories
Fries (mickey d's has the best fries) - 380 Calories
Coca-Cola (my true weakness) 210 calories

Total Calories in desired lunch: 970

What I actually ate for lunch:

Progresso Light Soup - 120 Calories
6 Saltine Crackers - 77 calories
1 cup of 1% Milk - 102 calories

Total calories for actual lunch: 299

The feeling of NOT eating the extra 671 calories: Priceless!!

Biggest Loser

The new season started tonight. I love watching the transformations on this show. If I ever did a reality show, it would be this one. Maybe I could make millions from it like the Situation. The again, I'm not a complete retard so probably not. I am a member of the biggestloserclub.com and I joined a "boot camp" group. I'm working on figuring it all out but it is supposed to be a great motivator. I'm pretty competitive so I think it'll help.

Survivor

I managed to make it through my first kickboxing class. I certainly hope they have an AED machine for tomorrow. Should I be in pain already??

Simple math..

Recommended:                         Actual:
Calories: 1968                          2092
Carbs 274g                              300g
Fat  75g                                   52g
Protein 79g                              56g
Fiber  49g                                13g
Sodium  1496 mg                     4246mg

Well I obviously need to improve on some things. I must have eaten a salt lick by the amount of sodium I took in today.

Wax on, Wax off

Kickboxing anyone? I going to sign up for a free 1 week trial of kickboxing classes. I think it'll be great not only to lose weight but for stress relief. Maybe now I can just beat up a bag instead of wanting to kick people in the head. I wonder if Mr. Meowgi will be teaching the class.

Into the wild

A friend of mine has invited me camping. Now I have to say that I am not exactly what one would consider an "outdoors" kinda girl. In fact, I haven't ever been camping. I don't really count the trip I took with my Aunt when I was a child because we slept in a pop-up trailer. This camping involves sleeping bags, tents and using the bathroom in the woods. Now I have a time senstive challenge because if I try to camp in my current physical condition, I'll be bear food. I have approximately 2 months to try to not embarass myself hiking through the woods.

so.....

how many calories are in TWO bottles of wine?lol

TGIF

Boss man told me to leave early so I came home, cleaned the house, opened a bottle of wine. Not a bad Friday! Getting dinner ready which is a chicken salad with strawberries, feta cheese and light rasberry vinagarette. Only 350 calories. I know what you're thinking... wine is calorie free right?? 

Introduction

I should probably explain a little bit about myself and why I wanted to do this blog. I'm 39, terminally single and mother to a wonderful son. I can't explain how I let myself get to the point I am at with my weight or why I have such a hard time with doing anything about it. I just know that I have to do something so I can be around to play with my future grandchildren. I started this blog to try to help motivate myself. While I won't be disclosing my current weight, I'm going to attempt to be open and honest about my ups and downs.  I'll probably try some lame attempts at humor as well so hopefully that won't chase anyone  (the whole 2 people) reading this away.  Time to see what tomorrow brings.

Weekend breakdown

Friday - Tin Roof and Pancho's.. not good choices
Saturday -The Varsity - really bad choice
Sunday - McDonald's - could have been better.
No workouts.

I guess there isn't any question as to why I'm not losing any weight.

But I am headed to out to see Billy Idol and Cyndi Lauper so that should be fun!!!

Grindhouse.. bad but good.

The diet plan didn't go so well today. On the flip side, I did have an awesome burger at Grindhouse Killer Burgers for lunch. Is popcorn for dinner healthy??

Today is Yesterday's Tomorrow

Well "tomorrow" came and while I wasn't magically turned into Jillian Michaels, I did manage to eat pretty well and go to the gym. The biggest downside of the day is the fact that my job enjoys feeding us. Our head honcho had a birthday today. Birthdays equal, you guessed it, birthday cake. After having a turkey sandwich with no cheese and mustard as well as apple slices instead of chips at lunch,  I caved on the birthday cake. Tomorrow is another day...

Tomorrow.... always tomorrow

I have the same debate with myself most nights. Debate may be the wrong word. I tell myself the same thing most nights. "Tomorrow I am going to eat right and go to the gym" and "I have to lose this weight". I even pack my gym bag, plan what I can eat for breakfast and lunch, etc. I have been overweight for about 15 years.. has it really been that long???? I have lost weight and then gained it back more times than I can remember. I haven't tried a lot of the fad diets because I know the only real way to lose weight and keep it off is to eat right and exercise. So, here I am. The heaviest I've ever been in my entire life and I'm going to repeat my nightly discussion with myself but tomorrow is going to be different. Tomorrow, I am going to actually go to the gym and not have Moe's for lunch. (Oh how I will miss cheese dip) Wish me luck!